California, here I come. Once you party with LA's.... Seriously, ready to conquer the makeup world. OK, not really. Just some rambling thoughts from my disillusioned mind.

Hey You

Hello blogging world! Where have you been? Or more realistic, where have I been? So happy to be done with school and transforming back into an attentive, caring mother (at least more than I have been). I even had a couple of bitter-sweet mom moments today. The first when I dropped Sage off at Kindergarten. As she jumped out of the car she turned to wave and give me one of her sweet little smiles, then turned and hurried away to join her classmates at the playground. While this may not seem monumental, I could not believe how confident and self assured she seemed. As a toddler she never left my side. When did she decide she was OK to go her own way? How long until she doesn't need me at all? I must admit the tears started to swell but not none fell...yet...not until later that night as I lay next to Zaya trying to get her to sleep. She rolled over and put her little cherub hand on my cheek and said, "I love you my mom". That right there is all I ever need, the love of a child.

I known, I know....I'm really bad about blogging. The problem is I'm in school all of the time and I don't have internet access at my house yet. On the bright side, I think I should have that up and running within a week. I finally had to have my brother call and set it up cause after 4 months I realized I probably wasn't going to do it my self. Hopefully I will be posting something soon.

Here is a post dedicated to Stacey, my roommate, my pseudo-sister, my babysitter, my housekeeper, my little Lois and if Ryan were here Pacedog. She is all grown up and married. I knew Stacey in High School. Well, I shouldn't say knew because I never really got to know her but I don't think I really liked her (my own fault....passing judgement...judging a book by it's cover...who knows). Who would have guessed that she would end up being my sister-in-law and one of my BFF's and truly one of the most caring people I know. She pretends that I was helping her out by letting her live with me but I think we both know she moved in with me because she was worried about me being alone and wanted to be here for me and the girls. I love this girl. I truly feel like a big sister to her so Brett better watch out or I will take him down (he knows I can). Stacey, I'm happy for you and I will miss all our crying sessions and seeing you all the time and just sitting and having someone to talk to. I love it when you ask me, "what is your week like" it makes me feel like I am still accountable to someone and if I went missing someone might notice. Thanks for everything. You're the best and I have never gotten sick of you.

A DAY ON THE SLOPES WITH AUNT STACEY...

Here is some footage of the girls snowboarding that Stacey took this winter. They are naturals, they take after their father on this one. Maybe just because they are not afraid of anything. This was Sage's first time. Asha has been a couple of times.

O.K., I know, I'm really lame and I haven't blogged forever. It is my goal to get things together and post something. I have been oh so busy but blogging is a great way to keep in touch and since I'm moving to St. George in 13 days, I need to jump bag on the band wagon. Expect something soon!

Change...

I have been getting the itch for some change around the house. I have been wallpapering and decorating and changing furniture around. Well this weekend I decided I was sick of the striped wall in the girls room, and I wanted to paint it to match the other green walls in their room. Good thing I have such a good memory and knew exactly what the name of the paint I used was. I went and picked me up a gallon and started painting. It looked a little lighter than I remembered but I just figured, "oh well, it must dry darker". After the second coat however, I realized my memory must not be as good as I remembered, cause it was definitely the wrong paint by about 2 shades. I then went out in the garage and rummaged around through all the paint we have accumulated. When finally I found the right green. So, I started the process all over again. This time it only took me one coat to realize I had screwed up again and painted the wall the wrong color for the second time. This time too dark (it was the color I used for the dark green stripe in their room). The bad thing was I didn't tape the sides cause I figured it would all blend. It is awful and I may have to hire a painter to paint the whole room if I can't figure out which paint I used. lesson learned on many levels.

Another change has come from this little monster. Zaya is obsessed with Baby Einsteins. She freaks out in the car unless it is on. The sisters movies do not cut it. I have tried getting her to watch Dora or Finding Nemo and nothing but anger from the little one. She loves the Baby Einsteins. Well, the other day I bought Mama Mia and was watching it while I folded laundry. Much to my surprise she was enthralled with it. She has become obsessed. Now every time we get in the car she points to the TV and says Mama. She will sit through the entire thing with a grin on her face or bust out in dance. The girl has rad moves. She even says money, money, money. It really is bizarre and funny but a nice change none the less.

Now here is a good and bad change...Asha was diagnosed with Juvenile Rheumatoid Arthritis (bad thing, right). I only say it is a good thing because she has had a swollen ankle for 6 months now and test after test and needles and surgery and finally we have answers. Her doctor at Primary Children's says a lot of kids outgrow it and they will be able to treat it and maybe soon she will have a normal sized ankle. That would be a welcome change but if not I know Asha will handle it. It takes a lot to get this girl down. She is so happy-go-lucky.

Sorry this picture is not rotated!

Now what do you think of this Change. Our new looks:

This is what crazy moms do when they are left alone with a drawer full of Mac makeup and nothing better to do on a Friday night!

And did I mention I am really into painting toenails right now.